Petty Lover. Nov 2018
Welcome back to The Waystation!
“Yes I'm a petty lover today
Cause I'm still mad about yesterday
No stupid questions asking me 'Why?’
There's no kiss for you when I say goodbye
Let that shit go, let that shit go
You keep telling me to..
Let that shit go, let that shit go
Say you don't know why I'm so cold
Where did I go, like you don't know”
“Petty Lover” - Jaz Karis
In Greco-Roman mythos, Venus the Goddess of Love and Money, was the epitome of Divine Feminine energy. In regards to astrology overall, she’s the planetary ruler of both Taurus and Libra and due to this rulership, her two spheres of control revolve around the things we value in the material realm + indulging the senses as well as love in general. Normally, this benefic along with Jupiter is regarded as one of the more favorable planetary energies that everyone loves to indulge in and obsess over, but for the last month or so since October 10th, she’s been retrograding in the sign of Scorpio. Venus is considered in detriment when in Scorpio due to the fact that her light and airy nature doesn’t tend to meld well with the depth of feeling and inherent intensity that comes with Scorpio energy. Being a Scorpio Venus native myself, I understand this energy intimately and I’ll be the first to tell you that Love in this regard is identical to the myth of Tantalus in Greek mythology.
“Tantalus is a figure from Greek mythology who was the rich but wicked king of Sipylus. For attempting to serve his own son at a feast with the gods, he was punished by Zeus to forever go thirsty and hungry in Hades despite being stood in a pool of water and almost within reach of a fruit tree.”
Sound familiar? Scorpio understands Love from the perspective of desperation unlike our sister sign Taurus who basks in abundance at every turn. The Scorpion spends its’ life in the unforgiving and barren desert searching for something that always seems to be right within reach, but too far away to claim. Since the beginning of her retrograde, we as a collective have experienced the “Tantalus Effect” as I like to call it -- one step forward just to get catapulted back, always just within reach to only be denied. This has been a major time of re-evaluation of who and what you truly desire, who and what you TRULY love. This has been a trial by fire and anything that is not pure WILL be burned away by the Plutonian fire of rebirth and purification that is Scorpio. You’ll know what was real and what was false when the dust settles and the ashes coalesce...wait until November 16th for the truth.
Now, onto the cards:
For quite some time now, the collective has been waiting to feel whole, waiting for our wishes and dreams to come to fruition. This is a process of soul retrieval in the most physical sense; an excavation of the Underworld.
As aforementioned, this period in particular is one where we’ve really had to sit and contemplate on what we actually give a fuck about. The 7 of pentacles is a card of waiting at its lowest, but on a higher octave it’s all about planting seeds of intent and being patient enough to allow them to bloom in their own time, “a flower doesn’t ask to bloom, it just does.” The two of pentacles following this is representing that back and forth; the weighing of the scales to make sure that what you claim to love and desire is truly what will bring you fulfillment, which is represented in the 9 of pentacles following it. Have you been feeling like you’re being forced to choose? It’s because you are. The 3 of pentacles followed by the Ace of swords is asking you to make room for what you truly desire and cut the bullshit. Most believe that Sacrifice is inherently connected to loss, a pyrrhic victory if you will. But what most don’t understand about this energy that Scorpio is so familiar with, is that when you amputate the old, you make room for new things to grow.
During the transition from Libra to Scorpio, we leave behind the mortal world of interpersonal connection and collaboration to venture into the unforgiving yet comforting arms of Death. When the trees shed their leaves, they may be dying in essence, but know that with the falling of these leaves, seeds are being planted as well. The Ace of Swords followed by The Magician is presenting you with the opportunity to create a whole new world built on the foundation of Divine Union of the heart and mind, Hieros Gamos. The Magician here is a placeholder for Jupiter moving into its home sign of Sagittarius which essentially means that the party is here, but if you don’t invite yourself by balancing out all of your internal energy and bridging the gap between your heart and mind and start manifesting from this Union, then you can’t party with us.
For those of us who choose to continue with the facade and refuse to let the old world die, my blue pillers, will get stuck in the 7 of swords energy where you’re constantly blocking your own blessings due to the fact that you’ve convinced yourself of the inability to let things go.
“Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is, you have to see it for yourself. This is your last chance, after this there is no turning back. You take the Blue pill, the story ends. You wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the Red Pill, you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the Rabbit Hole goes. Remember, all I’m offering is the truth, nothing more.”
At this point, I have no sympathy or compassion for you. I refuse to continue unnecessary suffering with those who won't choose themselves over The Matrix. With the 9 of swords followed by the 7 of wands here, you know what you need to do, you know where you need to go, you know who and what needs to be let go of, but you continue to fight it. Why? Why deny yourself Heaven simply because you want to dig your gnarled ass talons into the old earth? Come with us to Heaven or be dragged back to Hell, bruh. Going from the 7 of wands to the 8 of wands, while being a card of transition and speed, all you’re doing is launching yourself into another cycle of self-pity and grief. Right back into Old Earth, Takai or Te Fiti.
And FOR. W H A T ?!
There’s too much fun to be had, too much love to share, too much bloody abundance for you to continue to choose this, but in order to see that, you have to address your trauma. You have to go back and find yourself, your inner child, your heart, and show love to every neglected part of yourself in order to get here.
YOU have to choose YOUR happy over the suffering.
Yea it may hurt but the payoff is far greater than the burn. You can live without WHATever or WHOever it is you think you need, this transit has shown you THAT if nothing else. But if you continue to waste this time chasing and resurrecting things that SHOULD have stayed dead (I'm looking at you, wannabe ass necromancers aka Sabrina from epsisodes 8 + 9. And yes, I'm channeling the shit out of Ambrose right now because Spirit. Animal. ) , just like Misty from AHS Apocalypse, you’ll be stuck in your own personal hell for eternity. Constantly repeating those 3D narratives and cycles of pain.
The choice is yours, will you be a petty lover today or let that shit go so something real and worthy of your inner child, can grow from the fertilizer? You know the answer, follow your heart.
You are loved.